Working Out....

ugh.. i worked out yesterday. and i am SO sore. but in the right places! love handles! yyyeah! i can't figure out how to work out my inner thighs though. i would really like to.
i had a day the other day that i just cried cause when i put my pants on they were really tight in the thighs and they have never fit like that before. oh well. i'll get over it. i was embarassed cause i cried to chris about it. haha he said he wouldn't care if i gained another 100 lbs. and i think that might happen pretty soon. so shall see... we ... shall ... see.

lyrics of the day:
this song is super powerful. it hit me really hard because it kind of describes me a few years ago. some choices i made. it's beautiful. and i love it. how do you feel about it?

"the man on stage who shouts and sings as if he could proove something. A fallen leaf sat upon my neck and whispered in my ear 'dyin is half the fun of livin, if the living's not in fear' and you can sing your days away but they may never quite get why ... it is most sensible to smile and cry at the same time. to wrap around your sorrow in a warm welcome hug. hate is a strong word, but darlin so is love. both the children of passion split by a thin thin line. a tightrope we all walk along but some fall to either side.. cause you love to hate and hate to love and nothin inbetween. well honey that just means you are the opposite of me. cause i love to love and i love to love and honestly i couldn't hate a thing.. no no let me correct myself.. i love everyone in the world but me. i'll change my head to a steppin stone for all to walk upon ... i'm singin this song with no guitar so you'll just listen to me ... the truth how it really is. now i'll just speak these next two lines all soft and slow so you can let it sink in.. the difference between us my friends, i can see it in your eyes. you're glad that you're not dead yet and i'm just happy to be alive."

-Matthew Gilbert